Hitting the wall with the blues. . .

I have been in a funk the last couple of weeks.  And I hate it.  I was reminded today, while reading my ACIM book, that we are always in the right place at the right time.  And then at the AA meeting an hour later, the topic was the now.  Readjusting my vision and aligning my attitude with those two ideas is the assignment.  Not just today but every day.  I surprisingly feel far better already.

I know well the slogan: this too shall pass.  I repeat it to others regularly.  However, I need the nudge from those same others to remember it myself on occasion.  This is one of those occasions.  Thank God I went to the meeting even though I was 15 minutes late.

Getting caught in the trap of “out there,” instead of “in here” and right now, has been my struggle throughout my life.  I well know there is no moment but now.  However, I haven’t lived in this moment very often in these last few weeks.  I have been concerned about my many commitments throughout the remainder of the year, and next year too.  Egads, I may not even be alive for them and having my head there means I’m already dead to this present moment.  What an insane way to exist.  And I’m tired of it.

As of this moment I am making the commitment to be here now.  There is no other time.  No other place.  God is here.  Not out there.  Not then.  But now.  It’s funny how refreshing this feels to say this.  It’s as though I am learning it for the first time.  I know that I will handle all that is mine to handle.  I do believe we are never given more than we are meant to have.   And I also know that God is my helper on every assignment.

I feel as though I have been chosen for the work I do.  And I am grateful for this work.  But I have not been told to do it ALONE.  That’s been my misunderstanding these last few weeks.  Inviting “my partner” to rejoin me on each task will make them easier, more fulfilling and they will meet the expectations of others too.  What a nice idea to remember.  Are you letting the God of your understanding help you on a daily basis?  If not, give it a try.  It will make every task more fruitful.  You will be more peaceful too.  I promise.